liloveanc

i’m totally confused..

it’s been 3years and 10 months that we’ve been together..i look to it that we will spend our lives together a\in the future.. but,lately, i doubt it.. i’m ever thankful for everything that you’ve done.. i really do, but.. does it always have to be this way?? even now that we’re just dating and things is heading this way, what more could i expect if i really do want to spend a lifetime with you?

i’m afraid to be close to you again.. being dependant on you again.. i’ll just end up getting hurt.. getting rejected.. i feel like i’ve been taken for granted..do i really have to treat you cold, just like how u would treat me wen u’re tired or exhausted, then only you’ll know how to appreciate me? i donh’t want it to be this way.. it hurts.. i envy how other couples could be ever so loving even though they had been years together.. i’m sure, things perhaps will be better if i weren’t by your side this long.. perhaps it’s true that "absence makes the heart grow fonder".. but, that’s the last thing that i ever wanted to do.. to be away from you..

i know i demand of you acconpanying me, but is it too much? for you to spend private time with me? i’m not healed from the broken heartedness that i’ve been getting less closeness compared to you and your friend.. does your friend really, mean everythong to you? 3years ago, you wouldn’t even want to be away from me even a single second.. but now, it doesn’t matter anymore.. am i being taken from granted? all i ask for is your attention again.. just like before.. is it too much???